well, here I go writing again

June 02, 2004, 15:10

Alright...so I lied...I don't update this thing regularly. OOps...well y'all don't commenet regularly either so I don't have stuff to respond to...so there! Sometimes I don't write in this thing because my feelings are so strong that I don't want to let them out. I am afraid that what I might say in anger or just a strong emotion could come back to bite me in the butt. Here is an example...and if you are reading this and it hurts you...I'm sorry..these are just my feelings at the moment!
You think people are your friends because you talk about your days together, the things you thought were funny, and the guys you like or don't like and you ask them for your opinions. I am having trouble finding out why people don't respect me. I know what I am taking about and I am just silly around my friends and people I am comfortable with. This person said that I had to learn to show less emotion...so I have and I have councled this person and helped her get through a sticky situtation and was there for her when ever she needed me. Then after she is feeling settled, I was just playing being silly and said why don't y'all like me....and she turns and says...I'm tired of being nice and making things sugar coated...its because you are like this!! and that was me just playing around....::sigh:: it hurt my feelings and she hasn't really talked to me since....I don't know....its just shitty things happen.....I don't know...but that's enough typing for now!!