Well Well Well

March 14, 2004, 18:01

Once again I feel as though I should apoligize to anyone who reads this other than myself. I haven't been as diligent as I should be in writing my thoughts down. I am trying to move on with my love life. I found that I need to learn how to love myself first before I allow anyone else to. This is indeed a hard thing to do because I have such low self esteem. Some day I feel like I could be pretty and smart and another other such positive adjective, then I get into the days where anything negative describes how I feel. The trick to making me happy is keeping me busy, say funny things but not stupid things, give me hugs often...no...give me hugs all the time, and be positive yourself.

I sat back earlier this evening and tried to think of the things that make me happy and here they are:
1. Dogs/Puppies/and any other living creature
2. Good smelling objects
3. Games...I love playing games
4. Cuddling...I love to cuddle and be cuddled in return
5. I like attention (I know...its so terrible...but I do)
6. Movies!!!
7. A good back rub
8. Books!!!
9. Driving always puts me in a good mood
10. Sparkles..and anything shinny
11. I like to be praised every now and then (doesn't happen often)

I probably have more but that is all I came up with so far. I am trying to be a happier person, but in order to be happier I need people to help me. I am a people person. I do like my solidarity, but I really like being surround by people who really and truly care about me.

As far as my day went, I spent the night in the rec room at school last night. I don't think that it has ever been tried before, but jess and I thought that it would be cool to have a sleep over so we got our junk food, blankets, and pillows and went to the rec room. Surprisingly, no one bothered us and we were able to have a relaxing evening. Tonight the freshmen have regimental inspections, so I cleaned my room. I do have to find out if I have Mass or not tonight so I can practice. If you read this please reply...my journal feels so empty when you don't!